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10 August 2004 @ 01:59 am
River Floating  
I got up extra early today so that I could go down to the Clarion River with Erdman and her family plus Erin. It was a lot of fun. I was just the tiniest bit disappointed that Erin was there because I really needed to vent to Erdman about some things, but it was still a lot of fun. Erdman, Erin and I started out in the raft as we floated down the river. That water was sooo cold!! And just before we stopped for a small lunch Emily and Jeff took advantage of the deep water and flip Erin and I over into the freezing water. It was terrible, but at least I warmed up quickly. After lunch we three girls claimed the tubes and we comfortably floated along behind the canoe the rest of the way.

At one point Jeff and Mark got into a fight while they were in the raft and Mark refused to continue paddling, so Jeff threw him out. Twice. It really cracked Erin and I up. I really do enjoy hanging with the Erdman family. They are an interesting group. And I brought my digital camera so I have pictures! YAY!

After we got home I went into Erie to drive Erin home and on the way back I finally got to talk to Erdman. It definately helped me, but also made me frustrated to the point that I wanted to hit my head on something. Then Cholak and Tracy joined us at my house for star watching. It was so great to see Cholak finally. I missed her so much! I gave her a bunch of hugs and eventually started crying because of earlier frustration as well as many other things. After awhile everyone but Tracy was crying so I ran in for a box of tissues. Those helped a lot.

I'm really sorry Tracy that you were left out about my thoughts. Some of them are just very complicated and hard to share, especially in groups. It is easier for me with individuals so once you pick a day, I will be good to go. But keep in mind that there are some things that I just can't let go of yet and share with anyone. I'm sorry for all that.
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Tracytwofourthree on August 9th, 2004 11:33 pm (UTC)
no worries about not talking. been there, done that, do that. i know there are some things that it depends on who you're with, and some things that are never going to be out in the open. definitely i know that. no worries at all. whenever and whatever you want to say is fine, even if it's nothing. you know that.

no sorries, no worries. we're hypocrits :) love all you guys.
Tracytwofourthree on August 9th, 2004 11:35 pm (UTC)
woops... hypocrites i mean :)
Wotcher?koiuta on August 9th, 2004 11:41 pm (UTC)
Lol, I didn't even notice the error. Thanks for all the understanding, it means a lot. I just feel terrible because I really want to be able to share everything with my friends, especially you, but I just can't let go of some things.

Power to the hypocrites!! Love you too. :D